Ever travelled? It’s thrilling, but it’s also exhausting. New sounds, new sights, new languages and even smells, maybe especially smells. We’re overloaded with new sensations and it drains us, profoundly exciting as it is. The best example of this is probably the airport, that’s where you get all of the drain with none of the thrill. It’s just an airport, folks are all going somewhere and you’re just trying to find your gate and when you do, if you’re anything like me, you occasionally have this brief panic attack where you wonder if you’re in the right place so you check your ticket then the status boards that show where all the planes are at. That’s only if you get there early, if you’re running late for a plane it’s an exercise in panic and unfamiliarity. It sets you off balance.
Mother’s womb is all the baby knows prior to birth, it’s home. Sounds of mom talking, the steady rhythm of her heart beat, they say even smells. The connection between a baby and their birth mother is something profound and special. I’ve said before that adoption is a mix of many things, a lot of joy, to be sure, but also pain and loss. For a little while after a baby is born and taken away from all they’ve ever known they’re in limbo, at the airport, for a time. Not knowing where they are or when they’re going home. Everything unfamiliar. Though they lack words to express it they’re grieving a loss and the ones who come to comfort them are people they don’t yet know.
The process of us becoming parents instead of strangers to our children is called attachment. It can take time, longer than you might think, for a baby to understand who mom and dad are and that they can be trusted to provide all of their needs. So for the purpose of attachment Suzanne and I are going to do something called ‘cocooning’. It basically means we fall off the grid for a while, that we make the baby’s world very very small and then slowly grow it. Practically, it means that for the first couple of months Suzanne and I will be the only ones fulfilling the baby’s needs, building trust over time.
For these first months only Suzanne or I will be holding the baby and providing for his needs. It also means we’ll be staying home most of the time. This doesn’t mean we don’t like you, it doesn’t mean we don’t trust you, it doesn’t mean we’re raising our baby in a bubble or we think you have the plague. It’s just for this short while we want to keep the world small, we want the baby to know who mom and dad are, and we want them to know where home is so they don’t feel like they’re lost in the airport any longer than they need to.
Our baby boy could be here any day now. If you don’t hear from us for a little while don’t be alarmed, we’re just turning our focus inward as we grow into a family. If you’re reading this blog you likely played a part in this and we’re still beyond grateful, please be patient with us over this time.
Here are some links if you want to know a little more about cocooning and attachment:
- Bonding and Attachment: How Does Adoption Affect a Newborn?, this article is excellent and explains cocooning beautifully.
- This video is pretty long and talks about a broad array of topics related to cocooning. Her children were adopted internationally so some of her challenges are different than ours but many of the principles remain the same.
- This one from Focus On The Family is pretty good too: Attachment: What Adoptive Families Need to Know